Filling in the blanks

I sat down today for the first time in over 6 months and saw my sad little blog. No attention. No changes. Nothing. And I think it dawned on me why there hasn't been any changes. Why there isn't any updates. Why there is just a lot of nothing. Well there is a simple reason. This summer was one of the most difficult I can ever remember. Our family struggled a ton and in particular our marriage. I even debated not posting this because of the shame of it all. I realized however that I am mainly the only one that reads this blog. And years from now I will look back and wonder why the gap. So this post is mainly for my own memory. JD and I have struggled greatly. In fact to the point that we both wanted to be done. We spent the majority of a month apart from one another. The girls were tossed back and forth between here and Utah. It was difficult to say the least. During that time I realized that I felt trapped and that the only person I could blame for that feeling was myself. So I pulled up my big girl panties and laid it all out on the line. I told JD I was going back to school. I need to finish my degree because if things continued down the path we were on I was going to be a single mother without a proper education. So I enrolled in school and started classes in October. Between trying to get over a lot of hurt and anger and classes and the girls it has just kept me busy. Plus I wasn't able to look past the frustration and post happy pictures of our family. Today I had an epiphany and realized that this too shall pass and that I will regret more not having a record of our time together. So I'm gonna play catch up for a while and just get it done.